I lay in Intensive Care Unit (ICU) pondering the latest devastating news and yet another autoimmune diagnosis. I have been mostly home bound now for 14 years. My son’s innocence was lost early on as he watched me struggling to breathe or to take a step over the years. There is so much uncertainty about how I will raise and coach my son to college and into adulthood and my health and further disabilities in coming years. I am blessed with many organizations and resources in my community to help me when times